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Today/tonight was Leif's viewing. Sean said it was extremely sad, and it had all of Leif's little touches. His favorite red shoes, his black hoodie, and punk music playing in the background. Even though I didn't "know" him I still feel terrible at what happened. I actually wish that I would have talked to him, at least once. Sean told me some stories about hanging out with Leif. Some were funny and some were sad, especially the bird one. From what I hear, he was a good kid and respected people. He definitely did not deserve to leave like this. I wanted to go to the viewing to pay my respects, but it wasn't my place to go. I didn't know him. Now I feel like I need to go pay my respects, for a little peace of mind. Turns out I judged him wrong when I met him, and now I feel like I owe him an apology. However, all that's left is the funeral service and I feel like I would be intruding because that's for family and friends. To me, being with family and friends is more important than some girls stupid peace of mind so I probably won't go. I just hope everything tomorrow goes smoothly because they all atleast deserve this.

SeanMartin, I love you!