glitter

So my Pa's funeral was Friday. I knew when I woke up that morning that it was going to be extremely hard for me. The good part of the day was waking up to Sean's voice. He called to wake me :). There were so many people that came to the viewing and the funeral. We counted the guest book and there 466 people who signed. I saw a lot of people there that didn't sign the book so there were more people there; 90 flowers sent, not counting the ones sent to the house, and over 30 different kinds of food. My Pa was such a great man. I've visited him everyday so far and I plan to keep that up. It's so hard to sit in his house cause I just expect him to walk down the hallway saying, "Hey Ash, how's it goin?", but I know that's not going to happen and it's so hard to realize it. He was so nice to everyone and I'll miss him being there for me. I just have to keep telling myself that he's in a better place because he is.

You'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always

I hung out with Seany tonight. Being around him really helps me. He'll listen to me talk about it if I need to and he'll help me take my mind off of it. He's so special and I love him. We played blackjack with his family tonight; that was actually really fun.

night.